I m sorry about your illness. I recommend you to keep working in zazzle this will help you to heal faster. besides that i will like you to try Hopono opono healing technique .. I M SORRY PLEASE FORGIVE ME I LOVE YOU.. repeate this words several times in the day.
let me know how do you feel.
Besides that there is a switchword that works in healing wich is CHANGE. say change when you feel bad.. you will see the results..